Confused and bothered!!!

How difficult is it to be difficult from the others? How do you begin when you want to do something that maybe no one has done before? ...

I wonder who made rules that life should be lived like this or like that?

Who said we should work in the day and sleep at night?

Who said we should use money system instead of barter?

Who said children should be in school for the first quarter of their life?

Who said people should get married and then raise the next generation?

I wonder what life was before these so called social norms came into place..The social norms when they were made should have been a revolution on itself, right? How did people start accepting these social norms? What did those people undergo to make this change? Were they accepted or ridiculed in the beginning?

I know all norms are being broken in the 21st century but we hear them as stories across the globe. I wonder how it would me if I had to raise this wave of change? There are many decisions I want to take breaking norms?

Then on a lighter note I do accept norms too. I know there would be chaos if everyone thought the same. But I wish my world could accommodate some changes from my end!!! I hope it would!!!

Puzzled????

How many times have you done something or said something that you think is for good and it has turned out to be the reverse? Well, this could something said maybe just giving it a moment's thought or even after hours and still things go wrong!!! I hate it when that happens. At times I feel there is no need of giving anything a thought at all. When it is concerning people I am not really concerned about..well I should say I don't care(or do I??) But when it is involves people who mean something in my life, I am hurt. More than hurt I am angry at myself thinking why I am so.

Even though empathising, standing in someone else's shoes, all are simple to say, are we able to project ourselves so much that we are able to think what the person in front would react in the situation. I have missed in most occassions frankly. I feel I understand some people but then at times I feel I am with a total stranger. Those scenarios put me off completely. I am not angry at the other person. I am just at dilemma as to why I never understand them.

Happy Diwali!!

Today is Diwali. Thanks to all my Singaporean and Malaysian customers I have an off day today. But alas! What to do with a single day in between and hundreds of collegues applying for that Friday off?? Here I am at office. Now what would I have done if I was not at office is the big question!!

I could have watched a movie...but PVR is going to be worse than city market today. But yes, a grand city market all decked up with lights.

I could have gone shopping....but I have nothing to buy after all the shopping I did at Singapore and Malaysia (yeah, yeah..I can't stop talking about it!)

I could have gone out with friends...but most of them have gone home and the others are celebrating Diwali at home.

I could have spent time sleeping at home...but what to do too many crackers and cracker bombs going "Boom" every minute. I should have some intoxicant to sleep in that noise.

I could watch TV at hostel...but again the volume of the TV can't beat the volume of these "patake".

So here I am at office, watching movies, hanging out with all the jobless at hostel friends (just like me!!), going out to eat for lunch and falling asleep occassionally. In other words office is the place I get to do all of it and have a gala time too..

A new door opens

And now I am back and settled. Now that a week has gone past after the trip I feel settled. the excitement of the trip never died down till this weekend. Narrating stories of the place, laughing over the stupidness we did, just couldn't get over it. Now I feel my legs back on the ground!!

It feels great however. A new sense of belonging that I feel towards the company. I mean.... I was shocked the first time I was told I was chosen. It's not even a year i have been here. I hardly know all the people here very well...and I got chosen to go. I accept it is based on performance etc etc but still the feeling that "Yes they chose me!!" took a long time to sink in.

I know it seems like beating the drums here but the sense of belonging I mentioned has taken me up fully. There is a new dimension in which I look at my team, the issues that come up everyday. I just feel some responsibility towards the entire setup. This feels like taking me into some new dimension. I just hope this is a new beginning!!