Life at 35. Just hang in there !

First things first, when I was younger I never imagined a day that I would be 35. My dreams were always I presume limited to till 30. I would have counted being done with my studies, a career, a family and being settled by the time I was 30. And even if I did think after that it would be what I wanted to do at old age. Never even once I imagined a 35 me. Well then Hello Life! Trust it never to go the way things are planned. Being married at 31 it actually meant a major portion of my life exists in the 30s.

Today when I look back there is one hell of a list of things I learnt in these 35 years of life. I would love to make a list that says "Top 3 things that I learnt at 35" but then I learnt something very early on. I love being lazy. So I just thought of putting together my top 10.

 
             
                           

1. Don't wish for an older self : When I was younger I would always wish for the next stage to happen. In school, I wanted college. In college I wanted a job. In a job I wanted family life. But today all I want is to restart. I really wish I never wished myself away.

2. You can not please everyone : Learnt this may be the hard way during my work days (seems a century ago) but then kept this for anyone who then appeared in my life. Colleagues, bosses, relatives, parents, social media friends, other friends and even to my husband and son. Sorry I cant please you all the time!

3. When you want something open your mouth and ask for it : No one can mind read you, however long they know you for or how much so ever close they are to you. Most of your disappointments in life could have been avoided just by conversation.

4. Look after your body as it's the only one you got : I so wish I had realized this 10 years ago when I just didn't care what I ate or whether I worked out or not. Today when I chase my kid around literally for 12 hours a day I so much wish I was a fitter me.  When I look into my mirror and wish for another me I come to my next learning.

5.  How you dress can change how you feel : I was never really bothered about how I dress till at work place. Slowly I learnt that the way you dress not only projected your personality but also had the power to change your mood. So even today a new dress, sandals or any accessory just gives me that essential boost.

6. Sleep is a luxury : Even when I used to do shifts at work, I loved to sleep. In those care free years I could get back from work and sleep everything away. Work pressure, relationship stress, nagging parents, there was nothing that sleep could not cure. Entering family life with a small kid and a bigger one (my husband) I know that sleep is a luxury. Yawn...

7.  It's ok to love yourself : There are times when I am selfish. I have been occasionally selfish  forever actually. But today I am unapologetic about it. I love my "me" time. I could get up an hour before everyone else, put my kid to sleep earlier at times, make my favourite meal instead of everyone else's demands and not care. I want to love myself and feel that is the only way someone else could love me too.

8.  You can keep a child alive : Yipee! what i thought was an impossible task when I saw my friends entering motherhood now seems possible for me too. And what I learnt after I became a mother, is a totally different post all together. But yes! I am surviving and he is alive and kicking the hell out of me each minute.

9. Your home and parents our your ultimate holiday destination : Plan a million trips around the world, it is always stress at some point or another. But being at your own home with your parents it your ideal holiday. They will still shower you with love, pamper your child and give you all the me time you need. And you get that much needed break from cleaning, washing, cooking and parenting! Yeah, I am selfish!

10. Learn to forgive yourself for your past mistakes : No one is perfect. You could have wronged so many in this past half that you lived on the planet. Forgive yourself and just learn from all those mistakes that you made. Just Chill. 

In a relationship, then flaunt it!!

The latest trend in Bollywood seems to be stars going public about their relationships. These may be within industry or outside it. Way back in times it used to be a very hush hush affair. The love affairs used to be just rumours or denied by the stars saying “We are just friends!”

Of late relationships are more open. I guess it began with John and Bipasha who started accepting their relationship. This was followed by Shahid-Kareena, Preity Zinta-Ness Wadia etc and the latest among them being Deepika-Ranbhir Kapoor and Imran-Avantika. Flaunting the fact that one is in a relationship seems to be “in” now no matter how long it lasts for later. ;)


It just seems to be a reflection of our society itself. Parents seem to be accepting the fact that their sons have girlfriends or the other way around. The better half is taken home and introduced to the family in the early stages of a relationship itself. Celebrity couples seem to be behaving just like normal couples.

Whenever I spend time at Forum Mall in the weekends and see teen couples moving around, watching movies together, shopping or just sitting and talking I realize that the society has moved far beyond what I saw in my teens. There were hardly people in love when I was in school. There used to be just rumours and many of them just remained so. Not many had the courage to bring up a relation to the public or family front and many loves were just buried with time. Times change!!

Tagged after a long time

Was tagged last week by Soul . It's been a long time that I have taken up a tag so I thought time to dig me up again!! So here goes...

1) LAST MOVIE U SAW IN A THEATRE? The Chronicles Of Narnia : Prince Caspian. It was awesome.
2) WHAT BOOK ARE U READING?? Mills and Boons : The Italian's marriage demand ;) Just recalling those teen days!
3) FAVOURITE BOARD GAME? Monopoly
4) FAVOURITE MAGAZINE? Hmm.. I don’t read any now. Reader’s Digest when I get hold of one!
5) FAVOURITE SMELLS? Tandoori Chicken smell…Yum Yum!!
6) WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD? The wait to uncertainity
7) WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN U WAKE? Oh no..I wish I could sleep some more..
O9) FAVOURITE FASTFOOD PLACE? “Stop n Joy” bakery (Tavarekere Road)
10) FUTURE CHILDS NAME? Mallu or else Surya
11) FINISH THIS STATEMENT---'IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY I'D'....buy a flat of my own in Bangalore and fully furnish it
12) DO U DRIVE FAST? Well I don’t at all…
13)DO U SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL? Yeah..a dog…His name is Febu
14)STORMS--COOL OR SCARY? Scaryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
15)WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR? None so far
16) FAVOURITE DRINK? Chekku Milk Shake
17)FINISH THIS STATEMENT-IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD ....watch TV forever!!
18)DO YOU EAT THE STEMS ON BROCCOLI? no
19)IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY OTHER COLOUR, WHAT WOULD BE YOUR CHOICE? Dark Brown
20)NAME ALL THE DIFFERENT CITIES/TOWNS U HAVE LIVED IN? Tellicherry, Kasargode, Changanassery, Trivandrum, Bangalore
21) FAVOURITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Cricket
22)ONE NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? ..He is a bit weird, with a weak heart but a jolly good fellow!!
23)WHATS UNDER YOUR BED? A small Krishna idol
24)WOULD U LIKE TO BE BORN AS YOURSELF AGAIN?? Hmm..Yes with a few changes!!
25)MORNING PERSON OR NIGHT OWL? None.Get up late, sleep early person. Is there a name for that??
26)OVER EASY OR SUNNY SIDE UP? Sunny side up!
27) FAVOURITE PLACE TO RELAX? In front of the TV
28)FAVOURITE PIE? Chocolate..chocolate anytime!!
29)FAVOURITE ICECREAM FLAVOUR? I am a chocoholic man!!

"Big Brother"

Sometimes I do think that blogging publicly does expose onself to the outside world a lot. Then at times I think who the hell cares. Lately I was reading about this so called software called "Big Brother" (Yeah!Yeah! I don't blame you if you think of Shilpa Shetty) developed for tracking personalities of employees by scanning through their emails and sites visited.

The softwares checks for words drink, love, depressed, lonely, break-up, divorce, suicide, kill, penniless, or phrases like "workplace sucks". Hmm.. I wonder if ever my manager reads through my blog or even my Emails (not that I write out many personal ones) , how would he create my emotional profile??? Sounds creepy! But seems a little funny too. He would classify me as absolutely crazy, pendulum of emotions and what not!

I know that there are millions of people out there who blog. Sometimes I seriously wonder if we really have the time to connect to people across the world when we find so little time to connect to people around us. As for emotional profiling it's a great idea but aren't there people who don't let their personal life interfere in their professional life. Let me speak for myself; I am one. So how could I be judged by scanning my emails? And the case of someone spying you and tracking your activities is a real put off too! I don't know for others but I kind of erform best when I'm let go! So "Big B" could you just drop me off ;)

Article written for Women's Day@ HP

Date : March 8, 2008
Venue : A flat in the middle of Bangalore City
Time : 9 am
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It’s just another Saturday morning at the Koshi residence. Grandma is sitting at the dining table with her favourite rosary in hand. Margaret (Maggie) is applying the final touches to her overdone makeup while her daughter Simi lay lazily on the sofa watching Channel V.

Grandma : Simi, why don’t you at least brush your teeth and wash your face as soon as you wake up. Hasn’t your mom taught you anything at all?? Why are these kids like this, God? Why don’t you tell her something Margaret?

(Simi raises the volume of the TV and turns the other way unconcerned)

Maggie : Ma, How many times have I asked you not to interfere in what Simi does? Let her be. It’s Saturday and no school today. And how many times have I told you not to call me Margaret? Not that I mind you calling me that when alone but you use the same in front of my friends too! What a boring name!

Grandma : I regret the day we came to live with Philip in this wretched city. Margaret turns Maggie, “Ammachi” became Ma, all I hear is vehicles honking through the day and night and no one has any time. I miss my small village in Kuttanaad.

(She pauses remembering Kuttanad)

Maggie : Ma, Bangalore is the reason for what we are today. We would be still looking after Dad’s poultry farm if back in Kuttanaad. I work for a reputed MNC. I earn along with my husband. I am financially independent and we manage a good education for Simi too.

Grandma : Education?? What is it you call education? Look at her watching all those scantily dressed men and women moving their legs and hands on TV , in front of her elders with no shame. She speaks loudly in front of her father and wears all these short clothes too.

Maggie : She wears what she finds comfortable and suits this weather. You don’t expect her to wear a saree when she goes to meet her friends in this heat.

Grandma : True, I don’t expect her to do that because her mother herself has shifted to wearing salwar kameez from saree. Like mother, like daughter. By the way, where are you going wearing so much powder so early?

Maggie : Didn’t I tell you I have to attend the Kitty Party at Lata’s house? I would be staying back for lunch. All your food is in the refrigerator. All you have to do is cook some rice. I’ll be home by tea.

Grandma : Oh no! Are we eating yesterday’s food again? When will I eat some fresh food in this house? Do you even remember the time you cooked last?

Maggie : Stop complaining, ma! How do you expect me to cook daily when I have to go to work? I get home late as well due to all this traffic. Moreover both Philip and Simi are “ok” with this setup, why can’t you adjust?

Grandma : They are fine with this because they have no other option. Your dad would never eat the previous day’s food neither would I let him to. That’s why we were healthy always. I looked after him when he was alive and don’t behave like you and Philip who compromise on everything, like friends. Look at the food you eat! Burgers, Pizza, all good for nothing! See how fat Simi is getting eating all this. How will you get her married if she grows like this?

Maggie : This is something I agree with. Simi, dear, it’s time you have a check on what you eat!

(Simi sprang up with a growl on her face)

Simi : Mom, Will you ask Veliyammachi to stop talking? Firstly both of you keep blabbing and don’t allow me to watch TV and now she’s talking about me growing fat! Chill people, give me my space. I’m out of here. Mom, I’m going to Ravi’s place to watch TV in peace. I’m not staying in here with Veliyammachi alone! (She fumes out throwing the remote)

Grandma : What! She’s going to some guy’s house! And you are not saying anything? What will become of this world? Oh God!

Maggie : Ma, it’s ok! They are our family friends since years. Don’t worry! I’m also leaving. Don’t forget the food in the refrigerator. (She picks up her handbag to leave)

Grandma settles on the sofa and switches to Asianet. There appears a young girl wishing all the women a “Happy Women’s Day”! Grandma sighs as she ponders through all the phases of womanhood she had been through and what she saw today before her eyes through her daughter and grand daughter. She thinks aloud, “What’s so ‘Happy’ about all this? Sigh!!”

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Note : Women’s Rights and Women’s Freedom is something very individualistic and varies through generations too. The women of today don’t share the same ideologies that the previous generation believed in. We may have different views on why and how to celebrate Women’s Day. I wouldn’t debate on any view proposed. Let’s just celebrate “Womanhood” today !

Happy Valentine's Day

Oh it's the day of love again!! There might be not much for me as an individual in this day but I have always loved the day from the time I knew about it!!It all seems like a long time to me now but the memories are sure sweet. There was once the hard core romantic in me who lived within Shah Rukh Khan movies. The character "Maya" that Madhuri potrayed in "Dil tho Pagal Hai" movie was absolutely me. I lived in a world of fantasy where everything around me was full of love and beauty. Just like her I believed there would be a "Sapno ka Raajkumar" who would come on that white horse some day. I believed in the fact that there is a "Mr. Right" somewhere out there!

Most of my "love" thoughts at those times were governed by films as life revolved between just school and parents. Life has come a long way since then. Now that I am in the so called "real" world I definitely don't believe that there is a "Mr. Perfect". There are hardly any guys out there who match that matrimonial "wanted" profile.

At those times love was the dreamy picture of a perfect guy to me. Now it is more of understanding the person who is with you and accepting the person for the guy he is. I have a friend who tells me that the very thing he doesn't like about having a girlfriend is that they are all nice during the first days when love is just blooming. But once the proposal is made then it is all about trying to change him and making him the perfect guy!

So for all those people out there who are in love, "All the best"! Cherish your love and accept it as it is. "Jo thumhe badalkar pyaar kare, wo pyaar nahi saahibaan"... Happy Valentine's Day!!!

Oh!! Those boring conversations...

I am doing a special thesis over some weeks and the topic is “How to handle boring conversations?”

There seem to be people all over these days and thanks to the Airtel commercial they really believe that all problems can be sorted out by talking. So they begin conversations out of the blue that you just don’t want to be a part of. I have been thinking about ways to get out of these for a long, long time and here are some I think work:

• Say “Oh please! Not this topic again. I have been discussing this all week.” That kind of puts off people and stop blabbing!
• Suddenly act as if your mobile phone in vibration mode is ringing and you are in some serious talk over the phone. (Caution : Make sure your phone is in “Silent” through out the conversation.)
• Act as if you want to use the rest room. (Ha ha..no one can question you here!)
• Start talking about totally disconnected topics that diverts interests.
• If it is a talk that you don’t have to respond to, then just look at the person and keep thinking of other “interesting” topics.

I am still thinking of more methods but alas here starts off one more of those “leading to nowhere” talks.

P.S : Please give me some tested tips ;)

I am supplementing this case with more inputs from others around me.

• Concentrate hard on your computer screen or anything else all of a sudden.
• Just remain quiet and don't comment. Maybe put up an awkward smile. The other person might just stop!

Makara Jyothi

For all those who missed the live telecast yesterday, here are those divine moments once again!!

I really did miss the commentary in Malayalam but then had to suffice with Kannada.

Makara Jyothi

Titan- India's pride!

I have a sudden liking for brand Titan. It has always been a stong Indian brand and hasevolved with time never to fade into the background unlike Bata etc. Of late I have purchased two FastTrack watches within the past year and just last week bought a Titan Raga for my sis!!!

When I went to this Titan showroom in Indiranagar i was impressed at first sight. Truly professional staff and an air of style! they even took time to give me some trivia like Titan is the sixth largest watch manufacturers in the world! And more over Titan head quarters s located in "Namma Bangalooru"!

They have evolved their ranges in watches to suit the youth with Fasttrack (when John asks how many do you have? I can answer TWO) , for the trend setters with Edge, jewellery watches with Nebula (Sigh!when do I get one of those), the occassions with Raga and the ever affordable Sonata.

What I truly love is the new Signet club that i am a part of. I get Rs200 off on any watch I buy and moreover accumulate points for those purchases. Yeah! you get the idea right! I am shopping with friends too...Man..I love Titan!!!

Is life in Metros no more safe for women?

Just last week I wrote on the similar lines. Now that New Year's eve is past, the horrors of the night have surfaced. There have been numerous reports all over the country but the Mumbai incident is more gross than any I have read. I would not go into details at all. It sickens me. Read the NDTV report here.

I was shocked while reading this report. Moreover there was a chill down my spine to think of the fact that I am not safe in my surroundings.Metros seem more dangerous than villages. Back home in Kerala, girls don't go out in the night after 7 or 8. So the chances seem less. There is no safe feeling saying "I am going out with my parents/husband/boyfriend/friend circle". What could anyone do when faced with such a crowd of hooligans?? The thought scares me.

What disturbs me even more is to wonder "I agree the mob would have been drunk. But didn't even one guy from them have a least bit of sense to know what they were doing was wrong!!!" What's happening to humanity? We talk about rape cases as specific incidents. We talk about gang rapes also one off hand incident. We blame gang rapesin rural parts on ignorance. So what are we going to classify this incident in which such a large number of people are involved in one of the prime spots of the most mordernized cities of India on????

It disgusts me. It pains me. I am scared to go out in the night, alone or otherwise too.

Nightlife in Bangalore and New Year

I went for a movie on Christmas night along with my friends to Innovative Complex in Marthahalli. this is a half an hour drive away from the place I live. Now let's get more specific, this was a group of 6 guys and me one girl (yeah yeah...I just land up with guys as friends most times). Now on a general note this should have been great for me, any girl's dream, 6 guys and just me. Well, it was. It's nice to be pampered at times. But there were some instances that disturbed me.


After the show, when I stood on the road at 10.30pm I had this creepy feeling in me. I felt as insecure as I feel in Kerala even at 7pm. I knocked my head a couple of times saying"Chill girl..this is the IT hub of India!!" But the knocks didn't help! On the way back home, even the cops gave this kind of suspicious look that degrades you at any point in the day!

I wonder what's wrong with the city. Is nightlife all about call centers, pubs, drunken driving and X rated stuff??? There are loads of stuff I would love to do at night. It would be nice to take a walk on the road, a drive to coffee day on a day of tension, or watch a late night show!! The morale traffic police can do their job. I have no issues against them. But they have no right to go overboard by shouting at people having a juice at the juice shop or sometimes even rushing to take a late flight!! Spare us!!!

What's the use of complaining to extend the deadline on New Year's eve to 1am when we have way to go on a normal day too...Bangalore has miles to go before being truly metropolitan!!

Happy Days!!!

There is something I just could not help mentioning. Yes, for anyone at all who is anxious to know, I had a great weekend. Moreover I am happy these days. There are a lot of reasons for the same. People around me, availability of time to myself and then what I wanted to talk about. This book I have been reading - The Monk who sold his Ferrari.



I love the book. I love each section of it. I have not only read the book but read between the lines too. I feel the difference. Maybe it's not something like a permanent fix. I would still have the usual mood swings for sure, but still at the moment I am happy.

Till now I used to leave it to others around me or the situations I am involved in to make me happy. I slowly realise that there is so much I can do to make myself joyous and that's precicely what I am doing these days. I am keeping myself happy. Substituting each negative thought of mine with a positive one, a thought that makes me feel thaat life is worth living for!

Surely, Life Rocks, guys!!!

Eeeeeeeekkkkkssssssss!!!

It's been a long time I haven't returned to my blog. Yeah, I could reason this too...but well it's my space right!! The reason is very silly according to most people...I missed my weekend!! There were 30 others who were in the same plight but somehow i seem to be affected more than others.

It is always said that whenever we miss something we understand it's importance. I thought we miss people near to us and objects dear to us. I looked forward to weekend most times but never missed them. Last week we had an training program for two days. Both Saturday and Sunday and for 9 hours. Oh no!I have still not recovered from the fact that I did not have a weekend.

I am all cranky at the moment. I feel frustrated. I feel like blasting everyone at small instances. I even feel like taking an off and sitting at home. Don't get the wrong ideas that I have this oh so important work to do in the weekend or out of the world handsome guy i have to meet. Hmm..nothing at all..but I need the weekend to refresh.

I just lay on my bed and think of how I did nothing through out the week. I plan for great things to do during the coming week and then the next week I am back to same square!! but I love it that way. It refreshes me when I think of no work for those 2 days. I am one of those persons who clearly draws the line between personal and professional life. So out of the 9 hours in office, sorry boss I don't think of work!!!

So I am still cranky but then hey ...It's Friday tomorrow. So next Monday a new beginning. I promise myself!!

Confused and bothered!!!

How difficult is it to be difficult from the others? How do you begin when you want to do something that maybe no one has done before? ...

I wonder who made rules that life should be lived like this or like that?

Who said we should work in the day and sleep at night?

Who said we should use money system instead of barter?

Who said children should be in school for the first quarter of their life?

Who said people should get married and then raise the next generation?

I wonder what life was before these so called social norms came into place..The social norms when they were made should have been a revolution on itself, right? How did people start accepting these social norms? What did those people undergo to make this change? Were they accepted or ridiculed in the beginning?

I know all norms are being broken in the 21st century but we hear them as stories across the globe. I wonder how it would me if I had to raise this wave of change? There are many decisions I want to take breaking norms?

Then on a lighter note I do accept norms too. I know there would be chaos if everyone thought the same. But I wish my world could accommodate some changes from my end!!! I hope it would!!!

Puzzled????

How many times have you done something or said something that you think is for good and it has turned out to be the reverse? Well, this could something said maybe just giving it a moment's thought or even after hours and still things go wrong!!! I hate it when that happens. At times I feel there is no need of giving anything a thought at all. When it is concerning people I am not really concerned about..well I should say I don't care(or do I??) But when it is involves people who mean something in my life, I am hurt. More than hurt I am angry at myself thinking why I am so.

Even though empathising, standing in someone else's shoes, all are simple to say, are we able to project ourselves so much that we are able to think what the person in front would react in the situation. I have missed in most occassions frankly. I feel I understand some people but then at times I feel I am with a total stranger. Those scenarios put me off completely. I am not angry at the other person. I am just at dilemma as to why I never understand them.

I am bored!!

I am psyched due to inactivity. This happens once in a while or what the hell it happens every two weeks…When I feel I am not doing anything at all.. I maybe having a nice time, I maybe enjoying myself at office and doing something or another during the weekend still I feel psyched due to inactivity!

This is what having super weekends like the last one to Malpe beach does to me.. You feel such a high at one point of time where you try to cram as much as possible into 24 hours. You try to do as much as possible during those hours that the rest of the week irritates you.

I always have a nice time during weekends. However sometimes I miss work when it is Sunday. I feel like being at work. It’s just the grass is green on the other side effect. I always want opposite of what I am doing at the moment. If I am busy, I want to relax. If I am idle, I want to be busy.

And now I seem to have reached a point blank state of mind where I am not thinking anything at all. I don’t even know what I want. Moreover I don’t know why I am writing all this in the first place..Sigh!! Life goes on…

Sethusamudram Project

Over the past few days there was a lot of buzz about the Sethusamudram Shipping Canal Project especially when Karunanidhi went ahead and said, “Who is this Ram? From which engineering college did he get the engineering degree? Where is the proof that the bridge was built by him?” Wow! Now that’s what I call real cheeks of the guy!

If I would still be back in college, I am sure we would have a complete analysis on this case. The political, environment, economic, religious impact and so on….But hey I’m long past those hectic days.

This is the view of the bridge from above taken by NASA

I was thinking on what I believe. I mean, Yes! I do believe in Lord Ram. I am no atheist. But I am a factualist as well. Archeology proves that this bridge is about 3,500 years old. And as per the Vedas Ram lived in the Treta Yuga that is calculated to be 1.7 million years ago. But I definitely don’t think there was human population that long ago! Now who is wrong? No idea!!

There is a lot of proof that this bridge often called the Rama’s bridge or even Adam’s bridge (don’t ask me why!) could not be a natural phenomenon. It seems some reefs here are so light and that’s why they float on water.

Now I seriously would like to believe that this was the one the Vanara Sena built for Sri Ram. It really nourishes my faith in the myth. But could it really be true?

“Living behind a mask”

Over the years it mould,
A mask my face to hold.
Hiding behind this mask,
Has never been a task.
Even behind the crafted smile,
There are sorrows going a mile.
Behind the attitude that says don’t care,
Lies a weak heart that fears a tear.
My feelings I reckon misunderstood,
It is then I retreat into that hood.
Where no one sees the real me,
And beyond me is all I see!!
I wonder if ever….
You see past the front to what lies below?
Or beyond the truth I want you to see?

Tagged yet again

I’m back again with a “TAG”

Here are the rules:
* Players, you must list one fact that is somehow relevant to your life for each letter of their middle name. If you don’t have a middle name, use the middle name you would have liked to have had.
* When you are tagged you need to write your own blog-post containing your own middle name game facts.
* At the end of your blog-post, you need to choose one person for each letter of your middle name to tag.
* Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged.

When I saw Nags comment on my previous post declaring the tag, I was excited…Well a tag is the best solution to when you are thinking what do I write ...But things turned out panicky when I read the tag. My first issue is if I had a middle name what would it be…After a long thought I settled on “Helen”

There is a specific reason behind this choice. That’s nothing but life itself. I have always envied “Helen of Troy”. She was considered one of the most beautiful women on earth. The Trojan War fought for her, poems written for her, more than 100 suitors for her, movie made on her life, enough….I hate praising other women too much…But I seriously wish I were in her shoes!!

H – Humour loving. I envy people with a sense of humour, love to be with such people and enjoy life full of smiles.

E – Energy. I am mostly full of life and energy. I like to do something or another at any given point of time. Inactivity not only bores me but also enhances the devil mind in me.

L – Love and Romance. This is a true characteristic of a Cancer woman. Movies of love, poems of love, imaginations beyond the horizons, all take me to another world, a world which is never mine but a world I want to be in.

E – Evenings with nature. This is a certain high in my life. Whether at home watching the lamps lit at 6.30pm or strolling in a park in Bangalore in the evening or just a cup of coffee while watching TV lazily puts me to rest and refreshes me.

N – Never ending mood swings. This is something I hate admitting is that is characteristic of me. I am a bubbly person one minute and the other minute I may rebound back into my shell…

Wow…now that was a hard task man!!! Now for who else I want to pass the tag to….I love this part…

H –Hallucinations
E - Eashwar
L - Lime n Lemony
E – err… I’m running out of people so let it be Kavita ..she’s always tagging me!
N – Never mind the letter anyways just a letter away so let it be Maddy