Capital Punishment

Suddenly a lot of buzz on the judicial forefront.Saddam Hussain to be hanged in 30 days. Manu Sharma to be jailed for life. I have really not thougth about it but this certain reader's poll as to whether Saddam should be hanged or not made me put on my thinking cap (had to brush aside a lot of dust from it that had settled since some time).

Following my trail of thoughts, I am really not for capital punishment.Doesn't depend on the degree of crime at all too. Life I believe is given by The Al Mighty. Are we really worth making a decision to take away what he has given?

History is evidence enough. Valmiki who was a robber repented his acts and went on to write the Ramayana. King Ashoka who brutally murdered so many at war turned a new leaf and is still Ashoka the Great to us.

Life imprisonment...well ok but death??? Even if that person does one good deed in the remaining of his life spared isn't it worth keeping him alive? Don't know....Could bring other difficulties as kidnaps for release etc but somehow my heart votes out Capital Punishment.

Parents - With or Without

My two pence on the topic below. Their expectations from us and vice versa. But then again, this has a lot of dimensions. First of all, I wouldn't even worry about if its the "in" thing to look at your parents wishes. Because parents wishes translate to our principles, the values we were brought up with and its what be believe in. I wouldn't give up or compromise some things in my life. And I have tried not to do things that are not "me" just to fit in. Here is an example.

Maybe their today is our tomorrow. But there are no guarantees in life. Just because we treat our parents well need not necessarily mean our kids are going to be good to us. That will depend on their upbringing, maturity and who they are as individuals. Its a gamble, a roll of dice game.

I am happy with what I am, as a person and of course they played a huge part in that. They can by all means expect things from us but its not completely wrong on our part if we don't meet them 'cuz of who we are. Its a balance between selfishness and compromises I believe :)

Parents....

It's just one of the comments that was left behind on my blog that actually set me thinking. I know I'm a person who actually lives the way my parents want me to....OK let's be a bit more truthful...I try to be how they want me to be at least most of the times. But is that considered as a very "just not happening" thing now a days. I mean let's think both ways.
Why should they not think that way? They spent almost more than half of their lives for us. They earn for us and spend on us as well. Come on, admit it people, the world that we live in today, they have all the choice of not having us at all. So now that they do so much for us is it wrong that they expect something in return as well?
Thinking from our part true it's our life, we are of the age where we can decide what is right for us and what is wrong, we are the ones who have to bear the consequences of our deeds etc....All agreeable and valid points in the never ending debate but I feel life is nothing but a vicious circle. Their today will be our tomorrow. Do we really want a tomorrow where we are ignored by our kids, have no one around us in the last phase of life?? Give it a thought!!
Well I guess Parents are difficult to live with and difficult to live without...So choice is yours...

Life Rocks (??)

I think this the biggest honour I have ever received. That too at the least expected time. I would like to thank my mom, my school, particularly Mrs. Jacob, Mrs. Zachariah, Mrs. Jose and Shaji Aunty for making this possible. My teachers in college have continuously encouraged me to write and write again (some people call it 'impositions' but I don't care) and that has helped me to get where I am. My dog, my maid and my couch at home have been witness to numerous writing sessions and I can't but thank them at this juncture. Last but not the least, I want to thank Vidya (affectionately called Vidyachechy) for giving me this wonderful opportunity and I hope I can meet and live up to her expectations of me. Thank you one and all (sniff sob).

Hey it's christmas time...

Wow it's christmas season and I am really in a jolly good mood.This weekend has been one of the best. It's a long time I had a Christian good friend.So when it has happened you can expect how good it can be. On Sunday we friends got together and made the crib. There was hay all over the place. Playing around with the bamboo sticks and hay till the little crib was made. Not an engineer's piece of art but good for starters.

Then we went out and brought all the statues for the crib and did some bit of Christmas shopping. I now realise what the true meaning of giving gifts on Christmas eve is. You feel as if there is someone who cares and thinks of you. You feel happy to hold that gift you get in your hands and hold the thousand emotions that come along with it in your heart. One thing for sure guys I'm really going to have a blast this Christmas. Till now all it meant to me was 10 days holiday but now it brings me so much more happiness.

A year that's gone by!

Oh my god...When they announced holidays for Christmas that's exactly when I realised that the year has almost come to an end. One year since my student life ended and I am an independent woman in this world. Decisions to be made on my own,finances to be managed on my own.....shit now I know how difficult that is.

But this year has brought a lot of change into my world. But as I always say there is more to look forward to all the time. So next year is going to be a hell of a change. What will be the developments that would come into my life is yet to be seen. Do I look forward to it? Am i excited? Honestly speaking no!!! Change is something that I know is inevitable but change is something I dread too. And the change that I expect to come into my life this year is not something I really want. I'm more than cozy in my small little world here.

Friendship is the boat the sails you through.

Whenever I am not in the best of moods,put on my thinking cap and sit down to ponder on all that's past I wonder sometimes as to how I made it through all the tough times in my life. The answer that I always corner on is "Friends".
Right from my school days when I had Ulrika and Vanitha to hear out my heart. At that time problems revolved around school and studies mainly. These two awesome human beings saw to it that I was pulled through each fall of mine.
When I reached Engineering college it was Poornima and Harish. Poorni even though got busy with her own love life and then later family life, Hari was there throughout. He listened and talked(even though that was more). I felt happy every time he was around. I had the most fun of times at college.
Then came Nagalakshmi or Nagu as I call her. She was a bit of soul better half to me. We have spent hours and hours talking and discussing life. This was at a stage that we were entering adulthood and were facing life as reality. Problems gettign complex, relationships getting fragile but we made it through those two years.
Now when I am here in Bangalore away from a student life, when I am at a stage when I earn my own living Ifirst thought I would soon be emotionally independent as well. But that was not what destiny had in store for me. Surender or Suri came into my life with a breeze of fresh air. Even though much younger to me he had seen through hardships like none other I have known in life. He supported me and stood by me or should I say is still standing beside me like a friend, philosopher and guide. He shows me that if a problem can be smiled through then it should be smiled through...
Friendship will always be the boat that sails me through this life storm and this will remain so till the last breath.

Office is what pulls me together...

I should say this..It's been more than a year working in 24/7.I now realise how much it is a part of me. It is a place how much ever down you feel, how much ever you feel you don't want to talk to anyone under the sun.....sorry people this office is just not the place for you. You are never let alone in this place. You may stay aloof for an hour or two but take a bet on anything, the third hour you are forced to smile!!!

I have felt it on many an occassion. Whenever I feel upset or sad on an issue or even if it's just not one of my gay days I land up being my jolly self again at the end of shift. I love this office and the atmosphere it creates. There may be a dozen of problems within it but at the end of the day you always want to go back. You always want to be there in the midst of everyone making noise. Even this time when I went home I missed that noise in office so much that a died to go back that day.

I should definitely say that this team of which I have been a part of for a year now is one of those experiences that has changed my life. Be it my team leader or my team members....they have all been a big comfort to me at various instants of this past one year

Love marriage....

Love has been an important phase in my life since a long time.I have been always this romantic person who lives in the world of Shah Rukh Khan movies.I think that's exactly the reason why I find making a decision of choosing a life partner is getting so difficult for me.At times I really don't know what is it that I am waiting for or should I say who is it that I am waiting for!! All and the same.
There is so much of confusion at the present in my life.How do I say yes to a person who I have just met for a few minutes? How do I know he is what he seems like at that first meeting? How do I believe that he is speaking true to his heart? I have no idea as to how people work out arranged marriages...
Yes there are arranged and love marriages that go sour at one point or another. So it's all fate in one sense. So why not leave it to destiny. Let destiny take its own path and show my the light out of this situation...

Home sweet home???

Just returned to Bangalore after 3 days in Kerala. Yeah there was this time home used to be sweet home...My heart used to literally ache to be at home lazing around.This time when I went down I was sitting at home at that evening time when mom had lit the lamp.There was this strange silence that engulfed me from all over.A sudden blank in life. I didn't know what I was doing at that stage.An emptiness as if nothing to do.I swear for a second it was maddening.
Then started the good old marriage proposal talks and I was like Oh No not again??? Why not leave me out of this??? Give me a break people.. Yeah yeah I know I'm 25...have to get married etc etc but hey such an important decision in life...someone give me some time...
Whatever it is I really felt that returning back to this place where I hardly know a few people is much relaxing than living midst all those people who really know me but still don't know me!!!!

Late Nights

I think this is the first most change in my life now. I was a person who was afraid of the dark.When the time used to cross about 7.30pm I used to get goose bumps thinking of the dark and the evils of the dark,the mishaps that have happened,the mishaps that could happen....Oh my gosh I see stars even before they appear clear. But that has completely changed.
I remember the first time I started on my night shift life and I got out to go to the International Tech Park Mall I had that same creepy feeling in my stomach...As days rolled on today I live in the night. I hate going out in the day...There is only one day in the week that's SUNDAY....yeah also the other day I get off too...
I have been almost everywhere in the dark..I have been out in the ITP gardens in the dark!! Been to those Cafe Days in the dark...gone out on long drives in the dark...And that too without a sense of fear.
I never thought feelings that are in built through the childhood days would change....but this did make a difference to my life.

How far have I come??

The one thing that has changed my life over the past one year- BANGALORE!!!!
I don't think i am at the most appropriate moment to say that it is for the good or the bad but YES.....it has brought a lot of changes to my life..
The girl in Kerala is I guess completely lost....The traits are the same.Character is one thing I believe places or situations in life can never change...So people who know me please don't psyche out.I'm still all the same but one major thing that has changed is attitude in life!
Being here for the past one year and mingling with a totally new set of people at work place I have began to let go of my mind set about a lot of things in life..
I guess the entire concept of this portal is maybe for me to sit and actually ponder as to what are those that have changed!!

The Birth of Life Rocks

Nothing very special inspired me to start this journey. Somethign I have always been doing....Just thought let me try it out in a different style!!!